A Life Of Superfluous Nothingness
It has been a couple of very busy weeks for me and I appeared to have lost myself amidst everything. Too many things to do with too little time for myself … hey, even having enriching morning devotion became a hard job because I had a long list of To-Dos which I, in fact, never achieved. I simply lost balance and I knew I had to do something fast because I got swallowed in the sea of nothingness.
Take a second to do a quick survey of your life and you may find out you are going through the same cycle. Waking up at 5a.m. and whispering a quick 5 minutes prayer because you are late and have to catch up with the 6a.m. staff bus (God understands, right?), then you get to the office and while you try to take a quiet moment to read a verse, your phone rings and it is your boss asking you for an unfinished task. You postpone the ‘moment’ till your lunch time, which you mostly spend at your desk anyway with doughnut on one hand while you work on your computer with the other…
The day passes like a whirlwind and at 5p.m. you remember you never actually had that time for God and you promise yourself tomorrow would be a better day. But the tomorrow never comes because your life is being remote-controlled by things that appear little but are in charge of your life.
Don’t you think it is high time you regained that control?
I decided to take a break and go for a retreat. It was God and I and nothing between. Hmmm… You will never realize how much you have ‘gone’ until you find yourself alone with God and when He begins to speak, all you can just say is ‘Lord, I surrender.’ Nothing in this world is really worth it until you let the Father be in control again.
Today is my last day in my spiritual hideout (wish I could remain here forever) and as I do a countdown back into the real world, I have decided that nothing will ever take the place of God, not work, not school, not even those little things.
Remember that until you decide to click the ‘pause’ button, your life will always be a merry-go-round of superfluous nothingness (Oops! But that’s the truth). The weekend is here again… what’s the plan? The choice is yours!